It's been 4 years and Im still just fucked up I don't know what's wrong with me I dream about you all the time it looks like I pushed the family away and I can't imagine why my head is so cloudy I can't think right I'm an alcoholic and I can't stop all I see is everybody trying to hurt me I just want my momma to heal her broken 💔 and I know I don't help I do what I can fixing her truck and what ever I can do but I guess everybody hates me I'll be next I bet and it don't matter to me I'm ready no matter what I love all my family very very much but I'll never be good enough ur gonna always think of my pass and judge me off that but that's all good I wish y'all would of let me die in Gainesville I would of been ok with that cause I'm cursed from birth all I think of is bad shit and I know I have a good heart but it always turns very bad with me I love u all and I'm so sorry for all my actions I truly wish I could of been better Momma I love u so much and u where the best momma ever

John's loud raspy voice scared the crap out of me at first!! Didn't take long to see his soft heart... Always welcoming. Always a friend. Miss your awesome omelette with salsa!! No one John has met could ever forget him. Your woman misses you the most though. Rest in peace, friend. You are truly missed. ❤

We will always remember you, John, as a great neighbor, friend and wonderful, loving Family Man. Our deepest sympathy and sorrow for your loss. Your neighbors, Kathy and Joe.

I feel for you. You have such a beautiful family. Bill Kirkpatrick

I am so very sorry for your loss, he has a special place in my daughters and grand daughters heart , he will be missed a lot , prayers and condolences to your family , love you all , Ruth ....

We lived on Engle My big cousin John and Renee what first together.John use to build go carts for us..Being we didnt have much he built this best out of what we could find..Being the artist he was he built us and old police panel wagon go cart it was Awesome we loved it..Got a lot of memories with cousin John like camping out at Fairview park with him and my brother Tommy fishing ..I will truly miss u cuz Love u RIH your cousin Brian.....♥♥♥♥♥

Raenae, I have not heard anything about you in so many years and now to see your name under such sad circumstances-I am so sorry for your loss. How wonderful you had so many years with your husband.
Sincerely, Cathy (we lived next door on Engle-Grandma McDonald, my brothers Jimmy and Billy and me) Our condolences to you and your family

All I have is memory from yrs go ,but what I do remember, about my cousin John he was a realy cool guy and loved his kids very much he was much older then me so like a uncle he was to me ,life on this earth pushed are family's apart like so many others in are family, pety difference or childish mistakes, are family sometime,most times is so unforgiving. We forget we are blood . The very next moment 20 yrs 30 yrs go by everything can be fixed that is broken anything taken away can be replaced, every mistake can be forgiven.......but wasted time in life we will never get back ...love u John fly high cuz till I see u again watch over us all.......LOVE UR COUSIN... DAVID DONALD COLE JR

Uncle John I will miss you more then anyone will ever know rest in peace and sending my prayers to my family I love you all