I J UST WANT TO SAY THAT I REALLY MISS YOU DAD AND I WISH YOU WERE HERE BECAUSE IF YOU WERE THEN I WOULD HAVE YOU MAKE ALL OF THIS RIGHT BECAUSE I DONT UNDERSTAND ALOT OF THINGS .YOUR FAMILY IS SAYING REALLY BAD THINGS TO MY MOM LIKE SHE IS A LIAR AND AND IS A CRIMINAL AND TIM SAID WE CANT GO TO YOUR SERVICE BECAUSE IF WE DO HE WILL HAVE PEOPLE KEEP US AWAY I MEAN WHAT HAVE I DONE TO BE PUNISHED LIKE THAT...ME AND MOM LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND WE SPENT ALMOST EVERY WEEKEND THAT YOU LIVED HERE TOGETHER DAD THE LONGEST YOU DIDNT SEE ME WAS WHEN MOM LOST THE TWINS AND SHE HAD TO STAY AT THE HOSPITAL FOR A WEEK ..THAT WAS WHEN THE DRUGS GOT BAD TOO I WAS GONNA TAKE THE TWINS ASHES SO YOU HAD THEM WITH YOU BUT MOM SAID WE ARENT GOING BECAUSE SHE RESPECTS YOU FAMILY EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE BEING MEAN TO US ...I WISH THE DRUGS DIDNT GET SO BAD AND THE LIES TOO CAUSE I WOULD HAVE MAYBE MET THEM AND THEY WOULD HAVE LIKE ME ..BUT DONT WORRY CAUSE MOM IS GETTING HELP FROM THE CLUB AND AUNTIE ROCHEL WILL BE THERE WHEN CAIDEN COME....PLUS I CAME FROM BUCKEYE WITH MOMS TRUCK SO SHE IS OK ..WE LOVE U SOOOOO MUCH DAD BUT WE DONT NEED TO BE AT FUNERAL TO REMEBER YOU AND NO HARD FEELINGS TO YOUR FAMILY IM NOT MAD ..BYE DAD