Jacob and I spent a lot of time together in the 4 months we knew one another. He became one of the most influential people in my life. He showed me kindness, compassion and understanding. He added a lightheartedness to my life that even I didn't know I needed. Jacob helped guide me to a type of self compassion a love that I never believed I deserved. I truly didn't even believe it existed until he showed me. I finally began my road to recovery. As well as my road to self forgiveness. I will forever be honored that I even knew Jacob. A complete stranger in the beginning. He turned into my best friend, dance partner, lover, ghost hunter, bicycling partner, grief counselor, coloring master, lyric writing, soul hugging, belly laughing unforgettable piece of my heart. 

Please watch over everyone Jacob. Your mom, sisters your daughter and just everyone who's ever known or come in contact with you. I miss your smile, smell, funny faces and the genuine hugs you gave. I love you more then all the stars in the sky. I know you'll love me until they turn cold.

I was heart broken and lost. I still am broken and lost and I will be for a vary long time. I don't want to believe that your gone. You told me that you would always be here for me. Now you have to be here for me in a vary different way. I don't know how to get over losing you. You are my best friend the only man I really ever loved. I know your in heaven watching down on me you are my guardian angel. Please take care of my baby up there tell I can get up there to be with you and them. Tell them stories of there mommy for me. Now I'm going to sign this how you started our letters from when you where in prison and how I signed them.

                                  With my love always and forever  your baby dahl 

      Kimmy knopps 

Jacob Had loved this poem.

When I'm Gone

When I come to the end of my journey,and travel my last weary mile.Just forget if you can that ever frowned,Remember only my smile forgive any unkind words I have spoken ,Instead remember something good ive done.Forget any of my heartache ,only remember I also had fun.forget I stumbled and blundered and sometimes fell along my way,Remember I fought some hard battles and won them at the end of the day.Forget Grieving for my leaving,I don't want you sad even 1 day.In summer gather the flowers and remember I loved you each and everyday.Come in the shade of the night when the sunpaints the sky in the West just stand a few moments beside me and think of only my best.