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Gabriel Isiah Aguilar Gonzales

Ogden, UT, USA

October 26, 2003 - October 19, 2019

Oct 26, 2003 - Oct 19, 2019

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To my brother Gabriel. Everyone saw such a fun, energetic, daredevil, kind, caring person you were but what i wish you would have shown us your demons that were haunting you. I know you went through so much in that intelligent head of yours. I remember it was October 9th i got off work and i was calling dad to pick me up and he wouldn't answer then i called joleta she didn't answer then i called mom and she answered the 3rd time i called her and i explained the situation and she just said ‘walk home” and hung up at that moment i felt mad, confused, and just lost, When i was walking home i was just thinking and being mad. When I finally went home Grandma Ray was there and said dad will be home in the morning. When I didn't see dad's car here I felt the biggest hole in my stomach because it made me think “Does this involve gabe?”. On October 10th i went to school and at lunch joleta had texted me “you and Aaron go to the office im picking you guys up”, When she picked us up our little sister Abby was already in the car. The whole ride was silent but music faintly playing. We drove into salt lake and i saw a sign that said “University of utah” but as we drove more, more signs showed and when i saw “Primary children's hospital” that hole in my stomach got larger. When we drove up to a window joleta had told a man “I'm here for my step son Gabriel '' that hole got bigger. When we got into the building I was so lost. Then we went into this small room with our parents, grandma, aunts and uncles when mom and dad told us the news i didn't want to believe it, i was just crying in moms and dads arms and when they would try and break it all down to me, i would just look at the corner of the room just saying “Okay” while my voice was cracking. After 20 minutes of being in that small room a lady had talked to us and then asked if we wanted to see you i immediately said yes. When i saw you i couldn't bring myself to touch you or talk, just tears going down my eyes after seeing you for a good 30 minutes i couldn't be in that cold room anymore so i left. During those 10 days October 19th will forever be the most memorable. On october 18th our parents had made the most terrifying decision a parent could make and that was to take you off life support because you would've stayed how you were, laying in a bed not being able to do anything and that's not our gabe. You were such a strong healthy boy you were still breathing for one day without life support. I remember october 19th like it was yesterday. You, Me, Mom, Dad, Your Dad, Sara, Mario, Abi, Justin and Abby were in your room surrounding your bed just enjoying your presence and listening to your favorite songs. You passed at 3:45 am when you did mom passed out, tears filled the room, abi went to go get your cousins, but i just stood by moms side thinking What if your ghost is just hugging each one of us before you go to heaven. Your viewing was on october 26th aka your birthday i wish you could have seen the hundreds of people that were there and knew that they all cared for you. When we were in the hospital for those 10 days i was angry and sad but now all that anger is gone when i saw you in that casket i had seen all the depression, anger, and hatred had gone from your face you were finally resting. I'm so proud that you were able to make it to age 15. You fought so many demons for 15 years. I just wish you would've made it to 100 years. Throughout this bad time our family got closer together including Justin and Joleta, but it's not goodbye its until we meet again<3 I love you Gabriel Isiah Aguilar Gonzales.

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