He was always fighting demons no one talked about. I remember everything he said. he use to call me to tell me about it. He was always trying I saw his worst moments and best. All he ever wanted was to see me graduate and walk me down the aisle.  I'm finish what you started dad ima get revenge for you, I promise. you were so young. You might be gone but my heart still holds you, and forever will. I still waiting for you to come back although I know you can’t. I saw you in that casket you looked so peaceful, and it hurts my heart breaks knowing I didn’t save you . I am so sorry I never told you how much I loved you and needed you. I try to be okay but I can’t. When you left I went numb. I will never be the same again. I still talk to you sometimes I wonder can you hear me and why? I need you so much right now. And now I’ll never get to hold you again. You will forever be my hero. I will never forget you daddy I love you forever a daddy’s girl.

I can’t believe your gone it been two years and I still miss you everyday I wish you were still here I don’t want you to be gone you were all I had now I don’t know what to do I just wanna be with you one more time life so hard and sad without I just want you to come home one more time just to say goodbye I'm so sorry I couldn’t save you I still love you a lot you will always be my idol your memory is forever with me I love you daddy rest in peace I can’t wait to see you again 

Its my first Thanksgiving without you dad and it was horrible. It's almost been a year since you've been gone, and even though its almost a year since you've been gone it feels like yesterday. I'm trying to be strong but its so hard, will it get better. I never thought that losing you would be so hard but I guess I was wrong. I hope your better off cause damn its  not hard having you around. You meant the world to a lot of people and for some of when you did we lost our world. I know I did but you know I'm working on it. I'm going to school, I'm studying to become a nurse so I guess I'm doing a little better now. I miss you a lot. I love you dad.