I’m so sorry for your loss. Loosing a loved one in death is extremely hard to deal with. In the Bible, God promises to bring our dead loved one’s back to life. (John 5: 28,29) During this difficult time, a strong hope in God’s promises will help you to endure. And through endurance, you will experience that grand future in which Jehovah will “give you the requests of your heart.” He will satisfy “the desire of every living thing.” (Psalm 37:4) May this promise bring you comfort and also give you courage and strength. I hope your family is surrounded by lots love during this time. Things will get better soon.