Mother , Calvin is now gone and there with you. I feel so alone. I wish things had been different and you were still here along with Calvin. No-one tells you how to carry on when your family is gone and you never dare think of your life before this has happened. I always tried my best at everything thinking you would love me but I did not feel like that day ever came. I was so sad that your illness took you and grief stricken to see how life was draining from Calvin but he continued to preach , he missed you so much and told me that every time we spoke. You were lucky that God let you spend the rest of your life with your best friend. I miss you terribly

Mother ive missed you so much since you have been gone. I hope Calvin is reunited with you now. We miss him here but he missed you so much and was ready to be with you.  As you know, I take loss very hard , so this is really hard for me to lose one more important person to me. I will try to cope with God's help but it's lonely without family that cares about you. I sure hope you are happy now. 

mother also had her first grandson by daughter Lisa Parkman , Kandace and Kandace had her only biological great grandson Jace whom she unfortunately did not get to see. My mother had a son Joshua by my first stepfather. and went on to marry Calvin Hays whom later adopted Joshua. Calvin, was the love of her life which not many people get to meet and he loved her so much. She had a talent for drawing and writing poetry and she loved music, she. grew. up in arkansas with. many siblings but her father was a preacher also. She was a great cook and kind to others and great company when she was well. She got ovarian cancer in 2013 and fought for 6 yrs to beat. it. Now she can see her. parents and other relatives. She will never. be forgotten. If you would like, please donate to cure ovarian cancer in my mother's name Carrie C Hays. Lisa and I were. your first children and we. know you. did your best , i was robbed of the chance to say goodbye, but i know God had already taken you so that leaves me at peace, Mother i. hope to. get my wedding ring returned as our verbal agreement. i had let my mother wear my wedding ring for the duration of her life. and at her passing it would return to me because nooone. had. ever given her a diamond and i thought she deserved to have one to wear after my divorce, hopefully, the family will do the right thing and return it, they have blocked my number and i cannot leave a message on the answering machine. Lisa and I lost our last parent but she is an angel now.