I was at a time between jobs and didn't have a lot of money, particularly for health care, but I was hurting, emotionally and spiritually after losing a job and struggling with decades-long depression. I sought out a doctor, and found my way to the Riverstone Health Clinic in Bridger, MT, as they had a sliding pay scale for their services. I ended up with Carolyn Smith. Truth be told I was fed up with male doctors who I'd utilized most of my life for various health related things, so I specifically sought out a woman as a doctor, assuming (quite rightly) that a woman would be more compassionate. It was my lucky day, as again, I found Carolyn!
On that first visit, it was clear that there weren't many patients in the office that day, but I can't tell you how important it was that when Carolyn came into the exam room, she spent the next TWO! hours with me, mostly just listening to me and getting to know me as a patient and as a person. I didn't realize just how much I just needed to talk to someone that had a gift for astute insights like Carolyn did. Two hours! What a rare thing in this day of the 15 minute appointments! This was the personal level of health care I desperately sought. And that Carolyn so deeply provided.
In subsequent visits, I learned that Carolyn had served in the Peace Corps in the early days of the Peace Corps, as I had done years later, in the mid-90's. One thing I learned in the Peace Corps was the tremendous general quality of those inclined to serve. That kind of selfless-ness was written all over Carolyn's personality and I picked up on it right away and very much felt I was in good hands.
It doesn't surprise me that Carolyn struggled with computerized record keeping and reporting. Someone so keen on human interaction as Carolyn was, was likely destined to see less personal, computer-based health care as the enemy!
Though I only met Larry once or twice, Carolyn always talked about him and about her girls with such enthusiasm and such pride! Even with a patient, such as myself. I appreciated that she shared as much about her own personality as she heard about me and mine. That's a rarity in a doctor. But Carolyn was a rare Doctor.
Carolyn always talked about inviting me and a colleague of hers (and friend of mine) over for dinner. Alas, it never quite happened. One should always take advantage of those opportunities for togetherness, lest they never get fulfilled. She went away too soon! Instead I will have to be satisfied with the wonderful memories I have of Carolyn (she was never just Dr. Smith to me). I always remember her with a kind of comfortable, golden glow around her. Thank you for your boundless compassion and sensitivity, Carolyn!
David Kallenbach, Red Lodge, MT.