My bestfriend  Beulah "Kissiepuss" passed away peacefully in my arms on the morning of Dec 11, 2020.  She was everything to me as she gave me the ability to be me, go out in public and be okay as she went everywhere with me.  She did not see herself as a dog and neither did I.  She was much more special. She from the moment I held her was my soulbaby, my angel, my anchor and my reality checker.  She taught me what unconditional love is and to be honest I never felt more loved ever in my life.  In the 11 years there may have been less than a month total that she could not be seen at my side.   Despite the fact that she was not a human, she was the cute one getting most of the attention everywhere. All whose paths we crossed from the Bahamas to Alaska and on the planes, trains, and ships we travelled could clearly see how special she was.  She was my protector. She knew when I needed to be brought down off the ledge and was the one to clear my tears.  The last 4 months of her life taught me the most about being selfless and caring for the needs of those important to you. It taught me to see others based on their actions towards you when you are in crisis.  There is so much more I could say about the gift she was to me from the heavens above, and what an honor it was to me to have had her in my care for those years, but reality is no words could ever do justice to all that she was.  Letting her go was heartbreaking, but I knew...I knew the battle we would not win.  

I know there are those who may see this and wonder why almost 2 years since she is gone.  But that is easy to answer with to have known her and for me to say you will always be in my heart would have been an understatement.  The hole left in me or the shoes she filled can never be filled. The day that we are together again cannot be soon enough as the pain of losing her is always there.  Dr. Seus wrote about loss of a loved one not to be sad but glad that you had the time together that you did.  Some in this world never get to experience that and he is correct.  I'm so very grateful for my Beulah Kissiepuss.  I think even just writing this is part of that healing process and despite the length of time gone, what has been taken when the connection is what I had with my baby girl a sense of selfishness creeps in as you crave them being in your arms again.  I am left with her memories.  I begin the journey sharing those memories as she was the one and only Kissiepuss! 

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