2 more days and Tena will be gone for a full year. I never expected to experience the overwhelming emotion that washed over me when she passed, I don't cry, yet I could not stop sobbing. I died too, I could not function without her, yet I had to continue. Then I couldn't conceive that anyone else could feel that way too, reading your posts, and seeing those emotions and struggles echoed in your words assures me I am not alone in this. WE ARE NOT alone in this. Knowing this has helped me on my journey- and it has been a journey, back to life. The journey is not over, it may never be, I am at the point where I have to ask myself "who am I without her", and move in that direction every day, like everything else lately one day at a time. I can't tell you it gets easier with time, but I can tell you we get better at coping with our loss, regaining function, and finding ourselves. One day at a time.
one year
Posted by Tim Cromwell on Jan. 19, 2023, 6:30 p.m. PST
I've only just lost the love of life, Clifford He died Dec 3, 2022. I can't breathe without him. Life doesn't any sense to me. I cry all the time. I feel lost and forgetted. I can't even comprehend what it might be a year from now.
I just lost the love of my life 2 weeks ago, January 6, 2023. I really miss him terribly, and I don't know how to live my life without him. I listen to his favorite music, I look at his picture on my phone, & I am constantly telling him that I love him, and that I just wish that I had one more day with my precious Andrew. I'm really so sad that I'm at a loss about life. I almost feel like following him sometimes.
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Feel the same. But I would marry Clifford again in a heartbeat even still knowing how much losing him hurts. He was -is worth it all. I wouldn't miss life with him to spare me of this overwhelming I I pain.
I feel
Feel the same. But I would marry Clifford again in a heartbeat even still knowing how much losing him hurts. He was -is worth it all. I wouldn't miss life with him to spare me of this overwhelming pain.
Feel the same. But I would marry Clifford again in a heartbeat even still knowing how much losing him hurts. He was -is worth it all. I wouldn't miss life with him to spare me of this overwhelming pain.
My loving Andrew was-is the best thing that ever happened to me. I wish that I could have stopped him from doing this. He overdosed on fentynal. I'm not exactly sure how to live my life, but I know that I would marry Andrew again in a heart beat, or better still... A New York minute.
So sorry for your loss. It bad when they die at 80, like my husband did. But to loss them so young must be hard to take in. So many missed opportunities. But hang onto the good memories, don't waste time with the what if. ( I am talking to myself, too) what if I knew he was in trouble earlier would that change anything. Clifford died from a drug resistant infection.
