Since he passed I feel that Im floating, not really a part of the living anymore. We met at aged 14 and were together in one way or another until he died at 53 on September 25,2025. How do I reconcile the fact that someone who has been with me for most of my life is now gone?
My other half
Posted by Danielle Geiger on Oct. 25, 2025, 6:03 p.m. PDT
I am so sorry for your loss. I am in the same boat. We met at 18/17. I was 18. He was 17. We married at 19/18 and were together until January 6, 2025. The only times we were apart were when he was hospitalized in November 2021 - March 2022. Then he came home and spent the next 3 years going to dialysis 3 times per week and other doctor's appointments between those times. The last hospitalization he did not survive. He spent the last couple of weeks of his life in ICU in a local hospital. I got the call that he had coded on them early, around 1 AM on January 6, 2025. They wanted to know if I wanted to come to the hospital? What kind of crazy question is that? The doctor working on him was so rude and mean to me. I was enraged. He said they weren't going to keep working on him because it was inhumane! I told him he better get back in there and keep working on him! I called the floor supervisor who was kind and supportive, but I had to tell them it was ok to stop after they couldn't get a pulse again. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I too do not know how to go on with life.
I was at my sweethearts bedside holding her hand when she passed.. you just keep going
