Every night when I go to the bedroom I expect to see him sitting on the bed, I open the door and hes not there. Morning comes and if I'm lucky I'll get a few hours of sleep but only to wake up by myself. Nothing feels real and I keep thinking this cant be real. I've never lost someone that was my whole world but I was numb to losing friends and even family, not the man who was going to be my future. I wish I knew when I will be able to except that hes gone. We were arguing and I never got to tell him I love him. My room is a sanction of him but taking everything down made it harder.
Is it real?
Posted by Heidi Reed on Jan. 25, 2021, 12:51 a.m. PST
I understand how you feel I have been through the death of someone I was in love with and we were not on good terms at the time. I wish that I could say I got over it completely but I never have and it was 12 years ago. Being young when you lose someone that you were in love with never goes away. You will move on though but never forget. To talk to him I use the legacy page in order to send him messages and thank youse when he has had some form of communication with me. He will always be with you that I can tell you as a guarantee. I started a grieving and lost space on Quora. That is the name of it and it is very active with a lot of support and questions you can ask and you are welcome to join as there are expert to dealing with grief there as well as people who are grieving or have lost really close family members and other loved ones. I tried to find people to reply here but because it such a personal matter I went on Quora there is 215 followers of the group and a lot more active every day so if you wish to come I started the space I’m Leesa And the name of it I put above and you will get responses there and I responded to here. I’m sorry to hear what you’re going through.
