I lost my daughter, she was only 6 yrs old. She was a part of my soul. I can't stop crying. any time I have a second I'm not working or actively doing something, if I have one seconf to have a thought I instantly start crying. She was EVERTHING to me. If I could have cut out my own heart and given it to her to save her I would have. Watching her die in front of me is the worst thing that could ever happen. I keep hearing her cry. the noises of pain. And the helplessness I experienced, not being able to do anything. Its all more than i can bear. I barely sleep. only when Im ragged enough from days of not sleeping can i get a couple hours.I dont know how to make it better. Hell-there's no making it better. theres literally nothing anyone could do then and definitely not now. I'm so lost. I fucking miss her so much. it isnt fair. she was the sweetest most beautiful child inside and out.
there aren't enough words
Posted by Jewel Valmont on June 29, 2022, 3:03 a.m. PDT
Jewel,
I’m sorry for your lost. I can hear your pain in your words and wish I could wrap my arms around you and take your pain away. I can not imagine all your feelings and thoughts that you experienced- I can relate to there’s a part missing. My daughter just passed at the end of May.,. I don’t understand why our loved ones were taken home so early…it doesn’t seem right or fair.
My daughter was extremely spiritual - she use to say - we only come to Earth to learn to love and forgive- and when we master those things we go home. In her time here she studied Quaker beliefs, Baptist, Catholic, Buddha, and many others. When horrible things would happen- she would say - mom their spirit / soul already left before anything happened to their body. I’m not sure if it was appropriate for me to share her thought with you… I just know that our angels are with us in spirit everyday. And while it hurts and we have that emptiness- and we want them here with us… I try to remember how my daughter viewed her time on Earth.
My prayer - May your heart find peace and comfort- you are not alone… sending a huge hug
