can anyone tell me how to let myself realize this is the really happened and face it . all I know is I fell like I'm on my back falling into darkness...I'm standing in a room full of ppl yelling for help but no one hears me
grieving still
Posted by Jessielynn Jaye on Aug. 25, 2023, 8:45 p.m. PDT
I wish I had answers. My daughter died in May and I'm still in that dark room. I can set it aside to go to work, parent my other two children, but I'm very much stuck in that same place. I feel your pain
I wish I had answers. My daughter died in May and I'm still in that dark room. I can set it aside to go to work, parent my other two children, but I'm very much stuck in that same place. I feel your pain
Im on so medications but I was in stage 3 reno failure dying and fighting to live as she was losing heres I'm in stock I know where I am but can't remember anything after I was told at the hospital it hasn't hit me yet I'm scared of it. I'm very very sorry I wish I could take your pain
It so hard this my 3th kids I’m passed away
I'm sorry for everyone hurting
I wish I had answers. My daughter died in May and I'm still in that dark room. I can set it aside to go to work, parent my other two children, but I'm very much stuck in that same place. I feel your pain
I'm also feeling like i'm drowning in this boat, lost my oldest daughter9 months ago I'm stuck and everyday I pray for strength it is not easy at all, I'm 69 and totally disabled I have two daughters, Yet
The one That pass was 53, she pretty much did everything for me. She was my soul caretaker.. The one thing besides all the pain of loosing her, I Have Gracious memories of my deceased daughter. I have my eyesight back because she recommended and ophthalmologist to me. , Before she passed .....Thanks to my daughter I can now see once again,, So Remember all the good times, That's all we have left.♡♡
I'm also feeling like i'm drowning in this boat, lost my oldest daughter9 months ago I'm stuck and everyday I pray for strength it is not easy at all, I'm 69 and totally disabled I have two daughters, Yet
The one That pass was 53, she pretty much did everything for me. She was my soul caretaker.. The one thing besides all the pain of loosing her, I Have Gracious memories of my deceased daughter. I have my eyesight back because she recommended and ophthalmologist to me. , Before she passed .....Thanks to my daughter I can now see once again,, So Remember all the good times, That's all we have left.♡♡
The one That pass was 53, she pretty much did everything for me. She was my soul caretaker.. The one thing besides all the pain of loosing her, I Have Gracious memories of my deceased daughter. I have my eyesight back because she recommended and ophthalmologist to me. , Before she passed .....Thanks to my daughter I can now see once again,, So Remember all the good times, That's all we have left.♡♡
I'm so sorry for you're loss! 50 plus year's of memories has to be hard may god help you! I know that it's done so much damage that my other 3 children don't talk anymore we try but we don't know what to say to each other it's just a lot of yelling and screaming and crying between my oldest daughter and myself and I know Alexis would be so heartbroken to know or see us like this . I honestly thought it would get easier but I hear tr click from the clock in my mind everytime it clicks.... I feel like I'm standing in the middle of the nightmare waiting for whatever is in the darkness to hit because I feel it coming I just can't move out of the way if that makes sense... I hear her sometimes people don't really believe me but I do ..I miss the light ,the love and laughter from her so badly I can't help but ask god if he's even there? my life was already broken but never have I felt such pain and emptiness and just alone. .
I'm so sorry for you're loss! 50 plus year's of memories has to be hard may god help you! I know that it's done so much damage that my other 3 children don't talk anymore we try but we don't know what to say to each other it's just a lot of yelling and screaming and crying between my oldest daughter and myself and I know Alexis would be so heartbroken to know or see us like this . I honestly thought it would get easier but I hear tr click from the clock in my mind everytime it clicks.... I feel like I'm standing in the middle of the nightmare waiting for whatever is in the darkness to hit because I feel it coming I just can't move out of the way if that makes sense... I hear her sometimes people don't really believe me but I do ..I miss the light ,the love and laughter from her so badly I can't help but ask god if he's even there? my life was already broken but never have I felt such pain and emptiness and just alone. .
I know what you mean about drowning because that's what it feels like for me I'm sinking in and no one sees it .
I'm so sorry for you're loss! 50 plus year's of memories has to be hard may god help you! I know that it's done so much damage that my other 3 children don't talk anymore we try but we don't know what to say to each other it's just a lot of yelling and screaming and crying between my oldest daughter and myself and I know Alexis would be so heartbroken to know or see us like this . I honestly thought it would get easier but I hear tr click from the clock in my mind everytime it clicks.... I feel like I'm standing in the middle of the nightmare waiting for whatever is in the darkness to hit because I feel it coming I just can't move out of the way if that makes sense... I hear her sometimes people don't really believe me but I do ..I miss the light ,the love and laughter from her so badly I can't help but ask god if he's even there? my life was already broken but never have I felt such pain and emptiness and just alone. .
My heart goes out to you, it's hard even for me to try to give you words to comfort you and I can't even find words to compliment myself I'm still grieving and crying and praying each and every day I still feel alone even though other people around me ! Yet I don't get from them what I got from my decease daughter . So I understand what you are saying that you feel like you're in a room all by yourself and people yelling and you can't help them you feel like the more you move the harder it gets and yes where's the light! the room become Darker an lonier !!! No shining lights just the memories that I shared with my daughter and I believe and understand when you say you here your child calling out or whispering to you I also hear my child and see my child every time I go to sleep I hear a little things that she's whispering to me . You know I have another daughter she's 50 and we aren't close I have tried to give everything I can of me even when her sister was alive I went above and beyond trying to show her how much I care and love her but it was always a test. And apparently I Fail because I can't seem to reach her in any kind of way by showing her or even telling her how much I care and love her it has always been a jealousy thing and the thing is I have never treated either one of them differently. So I feel so so alone thank God for neighbors and Friends that we just talk to me but it hurts it hurts next month October 12 I will get my next cataract removed and it was my oldest daughter again that recommend me to this ophthalmologist so each and every time I go there I feel her with me and I thank her. So I end this reply to say to you keep remembering keep telling yourself you did your best keep loving yourself for your other children just like I'm trying to do and remember your child spirit is always with you. I don't know if we can leave our phone numbers on here! That I definitely would like to give you a call or you could call me anytime and we couldn't encourage each other Crown each other's shoulder and be there for each other you are not alone I thank God Forever Love! You Are Not Alone we all are in this together.🙏🙏🙏🌷🌷❤😇😇🎵⚘🌸
