My oldest child took his own life Friday the 4th of March. I don’t know how to do life without him. He was my everything and I don’t know why he did this. I found him, and tried to revive him and he was just gone. I can’t close my eyes without seeing him dead, wondering if maybe I’d been down sooner to check on him could this have been prevented? Was it my fault? Did he not realize how much I loved him? Did I not hug him enough or pay him enough attention. I thought he was doing well. He was excited about school and new friends. I don’t understand.
My son Blayne
Posted by Michelle Ehrstine on March 6, 2022, 4:30 a.m. PST
Oh my, I don't know who to respond to you besides telling you I am hear if you need to talk. My son just died Nov 21, 2021. Today has been a bad day. I've been on the internet trying to find a 24 hour grief support hotline, just to talk to someone. I couldn't find anything besides sites that I had to join and bla, bla, Bla. I just needed someone to talk to now. I don'e want to burden my family and friends anymore. I would rather talk to a stranger so I can just cry and show my real emotions. I feel like I have to hold it together for everyone but I am dying. I wish I could tell you it gets easier but it doesn't. I am here for you. Please feel free to call me. My cell is 808-268-2846. I pray God blesses you but I'm afraid this is just something that unfortunately has happened to us and I don't know how to fix it besides just being there if you need to talk. My name is Lori and my son's name was Brett Andrew Havens. God bless!
Oh my, I don't know who to respond to you besides telling you I am hear if you need to talk. My son just died Nov 21, 2021. Today has been a bad day. I've been on the internet trying to find a 24 hour grief support hotline, just to talk to someone. I couldn't find anything besides sites that I had to join and bla, bla, Bla. I just needed someone to talk to now. I don'e want to burden my family and friends anymore. I would rather talk to a stranger so I can just cry and show my real emotions. I feel like I have to hold it together for everyone but I am dying. I wish I could tell you it gets easier but it doesn't. I am here for you. Please feel free to call me. My cell is 808-268-2846. I pray God blesses you but I'm afraid this is just something that unfortunately has happened to us and I don't know how to fix it besides just being there if you need to talk. My name is Lori and my son's name was Brett Andrew Havens. God bless!
I typed my wrong phone number. It is 808-268-2746. I hope this message gets to you.
Lori Garisto
My son Died 3-30-22. My heart is shattered.
I’m so sorry for your loss. My sons passing still has me in shambles. I am trying to do life without him but it has gotten so hard. I wish I could say it gets better. I can’t imagine how that happens, but my friends that have lost children assure me it gets “easier”?? I hope that is the case for all of us, because this sucks! I miss my baby boy!
I typed my wrong phone number. It is 808-268-2746. I hope this message gets to you.
Lori Garisto
Lori Garisto
I’m sorry. I am just getting around to replying. These few months have been a blur. I’m not sure why they tell me it will get better when it just feels like I’m going to feel this broken forever. I am sorry for the loss of your child as well. Have you found any “better days”?
