Zak, it is difficult to put into words what today feels like. I have thought a lot about how grief affects a person when they lose someone they truly loved with all of their being. Losing you taught me that when someone you love deeply dies, they take a piece of you with them when they go. The person I was when I was with you died a year ago today too and she is also gone forever. Perhaps that is why for a long time the pain of losing you felt like it was killing me. But I suppose the opposite is also true, that you live on in the memories I have of you. And the depth of the pain is relative to the depth of love I still have for you. Your physical body may have died but the love I have for you will never die as long as I live. I cling to that love, I cherish it and I am grateful that I will always have memories of you and love for you.
Zak and I were wrestling partners when I was a junior in H.S. and he was a senior. He took me under his wing and made me a better person and athlete. I’m so sorry to hear of his passing but am grateful to hear he led a full life and was loved. My condolences.
What I remember about my years with Zak is not so much events or images, but feelings. Such a big-hearted, sensitive, loving, playful soul. I've shared some photos of his youth, and you can see even way back when, he had an undeniable and special light.
We shared a lot of fun times but what comes to mind was the early days of Himmel Haus when we took the Himmel bus down to the water park in Reno. That was an epic trip filled with laughter and shenanigans!