As we gather our memories, I want to include here something I wrote to Ed on his 88th Birthday Scroll:
When I read the dedication in Lon Po Po, “To all the wolves of the world for lending their good name as a tangible symbol for our darkness,“ my heart opened. Your ability to see the wolf independent of any use we had for him, to recognize the wolf’s own being, prompted something in me, astonished, to exclaim: “Ah, this is what a human being can be!” This generous. This alive.
My heart opened still more watching as you cared for the whole community. I see this in so many ways, including in your book The House Baba Built. You were able to see what your father was doing. Your father built the house for the benefit of many but you recognized what he was doing, created the book to share that caring way of being, and published his letter “… A successful life and a happy life is one as measured by how much you have accomplished for others not one as measured by how much you’ve done for yourself.”
You live this way. I see how, having been able to study art traditions from around the world and develop your own artistry with the aid of public libraries, and wanting that expanded life for everyone, you work to keep public libraries alive, open and free for those who come after you.
I feel your intense aliveness walking through your house, descending downstairs and across and then up a few steps and over a passage and more stairs and everywhere, an unexpected treasure, powerful words on a wall or a drawing or chart or book galleries or photos from a rich youth or a lantern you’ve created to project poetry into a room or a mobile hanging from the ceiling and me, sighing inside: “Ah, this is what a human being can be!” This intense aliveness is possible on this earth.
Walking with you through the house, you lift a plank off a bench and there is your life, the details painstakingly noted, harvested, digested, cared for. Elsewhere, you keep note of every single person you have encountered since you arrived in the US. Each has contributed to your life, you tell me, especially the people with whom you had difficulties. I see this is possible: to recognize the inter-connectedness of our lives, the value of each life as it intersects our own.
I see too how you do not let the treasures offered by painful experiences escape you. You allow the pain to grow you. You let your pain-radiating knees carry you onto a path you never imagined, one that led to Chang Man Ching and the rest of your life.
Sometimes I am shy with you, go silent, because I am standing there, entirely thunderstruck, feeling: “Ah, this is what a human being can be!”