To Kim, Elva, & Jay:

It’s taken me this long to even gather the words to you all. I’m so sorry. My heart truly is broken that Alex is not here any longer. I’ll never forget the day she was born and seeing her so small and yet so feisty. Alex never let her small tiny body get in the way of letting anyone know she was there and what she wanted. I loved seeing her and Niss as babies grow so close and even as they grew up. Niss and Alex always had grandpa Jerry wrapped around their finger. I always felt Niss had a sister in Alex. I loved watching her grow up and deeply regret not seeing her into adulthood.

I loved Alex so much and still do. I wish I could have told her that one more time, but that wouldn’t have eased my heart, it would have just given me peace to know that she knew that. She was special, beautiful, fierce, & gentle all in one. I’ll always remember her little and small with her teary eye & when she was older telling me so loud “Hi Tia Jess, I miss you”! I would always follow, “Hi Babe, I miss you too, be good” Thank you all for allowing me to be a part of thei sweet girl’s life here on earth. I’m sorry I could got go to her service or Jerry’s, it truly was too hard to say goodbye to them there. But know that my prayers are always with each of you.

To Alex, sweetie I miss and love you, I pray that God wrapped his mighty arms around you after you entered the gates of Heaven and told you everything you needed to hear. I know Grandpa Jerry was next in line to get his girl. I know that you are truly happy there. I’ll love you here til we see each other again sweet girl, til then keep an eye on Niss for me babe! I love you dearly! Love Always Tia Jess 💜✝️

I only have positive thoughts and memories of Alexis. She will truly be missed. I’m so sorry for your loss Kim.

Halloween — with Samantha Abundis

A favorite memory of mine of Alex♡: Kim and I were pretty thick as kin in our early adulthood. We both are pretty independent women (even early on in our lives). We decided that we wanted to go to the beach and didn't want to wait for our husband's, so we planned a girl's day trip; if I remember correctly, it was the first trip to the beach for both our baby girls! We had such fun on that drive, visiting and sharing new mommy stories; I think Sammi was 3 or 4 months old, which would've put Alex at about almost 2? We spent the day wandering stores and eating seafood, the usual; last stop Morro Rock to set the girls piggies in the sand for the first time ever! It was a bit windy and cool that day, which is why we hadn't set foot on the beach yet that day, but had to cross the foot/sand thing off the list! We get both the girls off the car, into their strollers and head down to the sand. Once we get to the sand and pull off the girls shoes, the drama began! Sammi being a baby and the sand being cold that day made her instantly cry:(! Then Kim tried to set Alex down onto the sand. Every time Kim tried to set her feet down onto the sand, Alex lifted her legs up towards her body as she stared down at this seemingly foreign ground. Kim attempted several times to set her down and every time she lifted her legs up as far as she could! She wanted nothing to do with that sand! We had a good giggle and gave up once Alex started really fussing about it...

This little story reminds me of just how strong willed that little girl was and remained as she grew older:) She was so smart, outgoing and independent like her mom:); but most of all was such a special friend to my daughter, who will always think of her more as a sister than a friend♡; as I will also of Kim♡ Special people who will always hold special places in our hearts, even when time and distance grows between us♡

We love you Alex♡♡  Thank you for loving my Sammi♡

A favorite memory of mine of Alex♡: Kim and I were pretty thick as kin in our early adulthood. We both are pretty independent women (even early on in our lives). We decided that we wanted to go to the beach and didn't want to wait for our husband's, so we planned a girl's day trip; if I remember correctly, it was the first trip to the beach for both our baby girls! We had such fun on that drive, visiting and sharing new mommy stories; I think Sammi was 3 or 4 months old, which would've put Alex at about almost 2? We spent the day wandering stores and eating seafood, the usual; last stop Morro Rock to set the girls piggies in the sand for the first time ever! It was a bit windy and cool that day, which is why we hadn't set foot on the beach yet that day, but had to cross the foot/sand thing off the list! We get both the girls off the car, into their strollers and head down to the sand. Once we get to the sand and pull off the girls shoes, the drama began! Sammi being a baby and the sand being cold that day made her instantly cry:(! Then Kim tried to set Alex down onto the sand. Every time Kim tried to set her feet down onto the sand, Alex lifted her legs up towards her body as she stared down at this seemingly foreign ground. Kim attempted several times to set her down and every time she lifted her legs up as far as she could! She wanted nothing to do with that sand! We had a good giggle and gave up once Alex started really fussing about it...

This little story reminds me of just how strong willed that little girl was and remained as she grew older:) She was so smart, outgoing and independent like her mom:); but most of all was such a special friend to my daughter, who will always think of her more as a sister than a friend♡; as I will also of Kim♡ Special people who will always hold special places in our hearts, even when time and distance grows between us♡

We love you Alex♡♡  Thank you for loving my Sammi♡

The first time I met you, you were a tiny little beautiful baby. Your dad brought me over to your grandparents house to meet them. Introductions went so so lol. (Your grandma was not my biggest fan at the time). When we were done with awkward introductions we could not find you. We searched everywhere only to find you under a table with a large tub of butter and a spoon chowing down. Your grandma was so upset that she had already told you no and was so worried you were going to get sick. You looked up with your beautiful brown eyes and a I’m so cute you can’t be mad at me smile. I tried to hide my laugh but failed miserably. I fell in love then and there. Tomorrow we celebrate your life. How did we get here? You were so young. How do we say good bye? I don’t want to say good bye, I will never be ready. I would give anything just to be able to have you back with us. I can’t do this, I don’t want to do this. Why? Why do we have to say good bye? I don’t understand. I will never understand. I love you so. I would do anything to make you ok. I try to hold onto the good memories. I have so many beautiful memories with you that I try to hold onto. How can these memories make me smile and cry at the same time? How do I still have tears to cry? How do we continue to live this crazy life without you? 

Sweet Alexis.  I didn't know you, but boy did I hear about you.  Your mammas heart is full of love for you.  I was so looking forward to meeting her precious girl.   Vibrant beauty that you are.  My heart aches for my friend.  I am looking forward to hearing more about you, and the memories you have left Kim with.  Rest in peace little one.  Kim, I love you.

While working with Kim, I had the privilege of getting to know Alex.  She would come by the classroom after school and help  with prep work.  When I moved into my own classroom she would come by and see if I needed help with anything too.  Alex would always walk in smiling and say, "Hi best friend!" as she gave me the biggest hug.  I miss those hugs!!

I remember as kids me and Alexis we’re Close. I have many memories with Alexis. I remember when me her and one of her cousins went to Sierra Vista Mall hang out for the day. We went to the little arcade that used to be in there. And she whooped me at every game we played. And then we talk around. We had to be no more than 15 or 16 at the time. As me and Alexis were growing up she would never let me talk to another girl she would always get mad. And say I’m the only girl you can talk to. She always found out when I was talking to another girl Fresno is so small and then she would call me and tell me you better stop talking to that girl because you’re not allowed to talk to anyone but me. She was like a second pair of eyes for my mom. Me and Alexis would always bump heads time to time but we always figured out a way to stay in contact. I had a chance to talk to Alexis a little bit in October 2021. I had a girl I used to talk to wanting me to DJ her wedding and her husband had no idea who I was so I wasn’t going to do it. And Alexis told me to do it at first. And I told her are you crazy I love my life more then money. And I said what if this dude find out who I really am and his family try’s to jump me then what am I going to do And she tells me you’re right don’t do it. I wish I had more time with her. She was such a beautiful person. And she will be miss. But I know one day I will see my friend again.

Dance Pe was the funnest with Alexis. We had so much fun making up dances to all the 2000 hits — with alexis brittany and nadya

Alexis’s Graduation Day

Lexie and I met at work in 2020. We became very fast friends. She was my rock. Carried me through so really tough times. She was my best friend and I so wish I could have returned the favor. I was previously a vet tech, so I’d clip her babies nails and check on them if she was worried one wasn’t well. We took a spur of the moment trip to Joplin once so we could take some meds and I could give her friends pup a once over. That was a really fun day. Music, windows down, conversation, and enjoying the company of one another. She was a goofball and knew exactly how she wanted things. I installed some ceiling fans for her once and I had to ask who was doing the work because she was standing at the base of the ladder trying to tell me how to install it. 🤣 when we were installing the pipes on the wood stove she was so particular about where the fans should sit. She was just so much fun. I miss her laugh and that million dollar smile. The lack of her presence is felt and I’m so sorry you’re going through this heartache. Keep watch over us Lexx. We miss you.

LOVE YOU KIM - GOD BLESS YOU - UNCLE BILL