I lost my father a little over a week ago and I’m so lost. I can’t even say the words yet. I don’t know how to deal with all the what if’s and questions running through my mind constantly. I am paranoid that I am going to lose someone else close to me all the time now that I can’t relax unless they are within my sight. My heart hurts so much and I can’t even believe this has happened. I want to just rewind and go back to the last time I saw him and tell him to never leave. I don’t think I will ever be whole again. It pains me to know that he will never get to know his future grandchildren. He wanted grandchildren so bad and he would’ve made the perfect grandfather. Mental depression is real and I wish I could have seen the signs. My heart is broken.
Most difficult time in my life
Posted by Anonymous on April 29, 2020, 6:54 p.m. PDT
I understand your pain. I wish I could have said something or done something to make it different. I cant. I can make sure I never forget the wonderful memories we had. I can make sure I say something to those I care about. I can let them all know how I feel about them. We have to do our best to see the signs but most of all we have to take the time to visit, call, share and most of all love. This takes time and while I go through it as well, you will have to take it: By one step, one minute, one second at a time. Take care and stay safe.