I don't even want to be alive anymore. I want to die and be right along with him. I don't want to be by myself this isn't fair. I have to keep suffering.
I wanna die too
Posted by Anonymous on Feb. 15, 2022, 4:59 a.m. PST
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I wish I could tell you it gets easier but I can't. I can tell you that I know how you feel. I keep going because my kids still need me. I also know that God is looking after my wife. I am going to grief counseling. Maybe that'll help you too.
When I saw my husband having his heart attack in the car while I was driving, I felt helpless. It was 6 days before I let him go. I felt the same way. I wanted to be with him so badly. But it's been 5 weeks and thru my family and weekly grief counseling I'm learning to go on. I have to get thru 1 day at a time.
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Sarah Thomas 
Ever Loved staff
on Feb. 15, 2022, 9:18 a.m. PST
Ever Loved staff
on Feb. 15, 2022, 9:18 a.m. PST
I'm so sorry for your losses and for the difficult time you're going through right now. I wanted to make sure that you have a resource in case you need to talk to someone directly about what you're going through. You can reach the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 24 hours a day by giving them a call at 800-273-8255 and they will offer confidential support.
I wish I could tell you it gets easier but I can't. I can tell you that I know how you feel. I keep going because my kids still need me. I also know that God is looking after my wife. I am going to grief counseling. Maybe that'll help you too.
I feel the same. It is like I am so alone. I do not even feel like I know any of our friends and family, they seem like strangers to me now. It is like being in hell all alone, a piece of me missing. It has been three months and the shock has been replaced by bitter sadness and anger.
I feel your sadness too. Each day seems like a burden to get thru. All the reminders in the house of how he is no longer with me....but....I made a deal with myself that I would remember all the good experiences we had and do "just one thing" everyday. No matter what it is. Whether it's a chore, an errand in the car, or helping someone else out. This has given me purpose. Hope it helps others. God bless.
On the 23 of December, I lost my better half, my best friend and soul mate. When he took his last breathe my soul went with him. I miss everything about him and now our home is so silent. My son being the way he is has no friends and told me he lost his dad and best friend. It's because of our young adults that I get up. But when I first open my eyes I wish I hadnt...and when I dream I see him and wake up after two hours of sleep to a tear soaked pillow. I am just living in an empty shell . I do not know, when it will get better. But I can say alot of people feel the same way
