I just dont know how to be ok, strong and all this is the worst pain. I miss my better half and I don't know to smile or anything. I always break down it hurts
This is the hardest thing to ever deal with
Posted by Jessica Gonzales on March 27, 2022, 10:51 p.m. PDT
Thank you so much your reply means a lot to me. My Condolences to you in this time. It hurts so bad I miss him so much
I partner, my husband, my ex-husband, my friend- those were his titles for over 29 years to me. My ex-husband and I were married for 24 years when we got divorced but then 3 years ago he suffered a stroke that should have taken him from us but it did not. I was able to care for him our daughters and I for literally 3 years to the day from his first stroke. We were granted 3 more years with him but 3 weeks ago he called out to me and I knew from the look on his eyes he was having another stroke. We had 7 days from that moment before he passed away. I just can't understand or wrap my head around it. We were all day together the day before, laughing , getting the backyard ready for a saturday bbq. We watched tv all night together. We were so close. He was happy! Why! Please can someone tell me WHYYYYY! I don't understand! my heart is so broken! All in one week, 5 years divorce to him 4/26, 16 years since my father's passing on the 4/28 and now his passing on 4/29 . I think I hate the end of April. Im so devastated, I miss him so much.
My wife of 37 yrs. died at the end of April too. That was just over 5 yrs. ago now. I can't explain the "WHYYYY" to your broken heart.....BUT i no longer ask "Why" and after five years, I don't hate April anymore, although it remains an "emotional roller-coaster/yo-yo" Month for me and i still "miss her" as if she left only yesterday at times. But here's the deal now, for me anyway: "I don't "miss her" most of the time because I've found her very best lives on, thru me with new enthusiasm and purposes i now try to serve today. As Tom Petty's song expressed that "Love is a Long Long Road"- i recon he's still right! You must & will press on with your journey ahead....and also note that after 5 years, I am writing this message to you...also part of "my process". All the best to you and I'm sorry for your loss.