Looking thru old pics is EXHAUSTING It’s so heavy to bear the clear hindsight when I feel the smallest I’ve ever been after my beautiful boy chose to leave life. I can see clearly now and feel completely undone. I wish I could vaporize myself yet somehow still know the amazing beautiful children born to me.
Looking thru old pics is EXHAUSTING!
Posted by Johnny’s mom 💙 on May 18, 2022, 9:09 p.m. PDT
I’m so sorry for your pain and mine.
Life beckons but I’m growing comfortable staying in the dark and pain where I don’t want to leave. My whole life I’ve climbed out from the lowest bottoms and now this. I can’t stand it. I scream to the heavens whyyyyyyyyy. WHYYYYYYYYYY! Why?
Yes. I’m forever broken. We as a family are forever broken. I wish I could say 1/3 of my heart was gone because I have 3 children. But it’s so much more. My heart has a huge hole. Which will never again be whole.
EXACTLY!!! I woke from a nap today and saw three sand hill cranes come in for a landing in my dream. It was gorgeous then I opened my eyes and the clock read 3:22. I thought of how I had three children alive that went to two
3:22. Three to two. I miss that beautiful beautiful boy. I’ll NEVER be who I was before bc my heart is broken as all of ours and it’s so terrible!!!!!
I dislike the phrase "I know what you're going through" when they haven't lost a child.
Let me correct you. You have NO idea what I'm going through.
I don’t even want to hear others advice bc once they’ve moved on they have forgotten the hell. I talk to so few people bc I can’t take in their advice or thin sympathy. It’s truly hell tb the mother of a child who has gone.
I miss your wisdom. I can use some advice now, Sue, only you can offer.
Hugs to you as you mark one year. I’m sure you still sit in disbelief. Poor poor mamma. I wish you
My son Wes died 12-28-21. It’s been a little over five months and I’m shattered. My daughter Keri died 11-22-74 and even though it’s been 48 years I can barely breathe. I put on a good face but I can’t concentrate, can’t hold a meaningful conversation and my friends have seemingly disappeared. Does anyone else experience this?
I’m so sorry for the loss of your children. My heart hurts for you. I had a new realization today that made me weep anew. There are so many layers to grief. I have chosen to talk to only a few people bc I can only take in so much energy. I have been surprised by the absence of certain people but can’t care over it much. I hope you will continue to reach out here if it’s helpful. We can all understand your pain and confusion. Hugs sweet mamma.
Not being able to concentrate, I believe is part of grieving.
When talked to, I hear words, only words. No conversation. My mind is a million miles away.
So sorry for your tremendous loss. I'm afraid there are no words of comfort.
Just realize there are people out there that truly understand what you're going through.
Sadly, too many people.