Man o man, where to start. Josh was a handsome little guy when he was growing up. He had several failed relationships which resulted in 3 little boys that now will grow up not knowing their daddy.
I don't know what to do. All I do is cry, scream and try to keep my distance from people. My heart was crushed when I found my baby boy alone, dead laying on a mattress in an abandoned shed in the neighborhood that he told people would be the death of him...and it was. He was homeless by choice. He had recently been to rehab and was so happy to have completed the program. But then he was turned down by his wife and I feel like that sent him in a downward spiral.
Joshua Weaver
Posted by Diane Hounschell on Nov. 8, 2022, 3:57 a.m. PST
There really isn't anything you can do except remind his little boys how much their daddy loved them.
Being in recovery myself due to many lifeless behaviors that began when my 9 year old Jamie passed, I can only say to tell your grand babies that their Daddy is no longer suffering and is made perfect and taking care of business now with the help of other Angels in Heaven. Weather you are a believer or not, I remember telling my children that their brother is getting our home ready with golden roads. For his sister (Sissie Girl) he’ll have lots of beautiful paintings of flowers and a room full of candy. For his brother (Big -O) he’ll have all the famous football players for him to meet and of course lots of cake. They’ll have to navigate for themselves when they are older. Now 10 years later, my children believe that there’s a beautiful place waiting for them with their brother. It’s been a struggle for me not being at peace and letting my Jamie go and truly believing I will see him someday. Today, I have to let him go for my inner peace that will lead to saving my marriage with my Jamie’s Daddy, most importantly, restore my relationship with Sissie Girl and Big-O. I choose to walk in peace today and believe that I will have my Jamie in my arms again.
I hope this helps to comfort you and your family. I will pray for peace for your family.
~Jillian
P.s I played songs that remind my children of their brother. ~Somewhere over the rainbow, I will wait (Mumford&Sons), Chains Hang Low by Jibbs ….LOL
I know exactly what your going through i raise my grandchildren and have for years. My son was an addict.
I lost my boy this week
My grief is so raw its only been a week but I know it's going to get worse
I'm so sorry you have know this pain
